Life Lesson # 3,758:
some of the friends you thought were kindred, are not really your friends at all- and never were. sometimes just as easily as they came into your life, they must be ditched. the company you keep is a direct reflection of you. aim for the highest. actions speak louder than words. toxic behavior will not change. we all deserve the highest in all friendships and relationships. you can love all people but that doesn't mean you have to like all of them. when someone consciously and purposefully hurts you, know that Nature will take care of the rest. no worries.

diwali!

HAPPY MAHALAKSHMI DAY UNIVERSE!!!! mwah*

banana bread

3.5 hours later, i realized that i'd made banana bread but had never pulled it out of the oven!!! thank god i hadn't turned the oven on....

listen up!

more from brett and jemaine...

why are they sooo funny?!

choices?

so lately it's been irking me. almost agitating me really. this whole reality of destiny mixed with predetermination. where does one begin and the other stop? i am also not the only one in this boat apparently. a friend gasped today in thankful concordance. "you too eh?!" as though she were grateful to know she wasn't the only one currently struggling with this one. and another friend yesterday was acknowledging the brilliance of the goal setting techniques that Brian Tracy speaks of in his "Psychology of achievement" lectures but then asked "so where does surrender play into all of this?!" my sentiments exactly. and just when i thought i had such a firm grounding on all of this. a sincere overstanding. then, suddenly, this mental breeze blows in of total uncertainty.
there've been some recent experiences that play into this i suppose. but really, do we choose EVERYTHING??
well of course we do. i guess. even if it's subconscious or from a strictly karmic level. we chose this life. ALL of it. the good. the bad. the ugly. (and i firmly believe that it's ALL GOOD. no matter how you slice it.)
but in this present moment. right now. we are making choices that then effect our future. this moment is nothing more than a series of pasts afterall. so don't we want to choose wisely? and if we are able to choose wisely, then what the hell do we choose? especially if partially it doesn't matter what we choose 'cause we chose this life that is partially already predetermined.
so i chose to be me. on some conscious level. i chose to have some of these issues that i'm "working on." my jyotish chart points them out clearly. i came in with some baggage. (not a bad choice in luggage if i do say so myself.) some of it will be resolved. but life will be handing me a lot to deal with as well. i chose this. looks like i can't really change those things. i can't change relationship issues. or losses- whether it be family members or monetary. these things have been set. all i can change is my thoughts and consciousness about them. is that my destiny? do i surrender to this? is this amount of change and consciousness also predetermined? or because i set goals, higher aspirations and desires and aim to achieve them, will my life be different? no matter what? what can change as a result?
....meanwhile back at the ranch, i'm forced to keep living. and acting. and accruing karmas. and dealing with my life luggage.... i will still want to believe that we can always go out shopping for new, more stylie luggage....

crucial roots

.....the irie reggae vibez get spit every sunday from 12-1:00 CST.....it's Crucial Roots. audiostream it @ www.kruufm.com......this sunday a triple of Black Uhuru (expect an original, a live track and a 12" cut) and plenty of other delicious, random surprises....guaranteed to get you skankin'.....